So...about that...

Apparently I'm really bad at blogging; I never update.  Does this mean my life is boring? Hmmm....

Well, I guess I'll fill ya'll in about what has been happening these last few weeks.  Grad school is, um, not what I expected.  At Friends as an undergrad I was used to 15+ days and never having enough time to do anything.  At WSU as a grad student I feel like I'm looking for things to do.  To be honest, that is super hard for someone like me.  I like to be busy, to run on tight deadlines and to pull things out last minuet.  Its also been a change in the fact that I'm just barely getting to know people.  My goal in grad school isn't to make lifelong friendships like I did at Friends.  I mean, I want to get in and out so I can get this degree and start to teach my children with special needs the joys of music.  That is my passion, that is my love, and to be honest, its driving me crazy that I can't do that right now.  BUT....I know 100% this is where God wants me to be because He worked out everything beautifully for my story.  So I will adjust as needed and see where it takes me :-)

With all that said...I quit orchestra after one week. What, you ask?  I thought you were dying to play in orchestra again! Well, I was.  God again taught me a lesson.  I got 3rd chair in the orchestra and I've never sat 3rd in my life....rarely did I even sit 2nd chair.  So, that was a HUGE hit on my pride, and it was much needed.  I went to orchestra for that first week determined to make this work, to bloom where I'm planted.  And...it drove me crazy.  Cause at WSU, being 3rd chair in the orchestra basically means you play when they need you...which is like never.  Only on pieces that had english horn did I get to play 2nd part.  Then we got the performance schedule.  I looked at the performance schedule, I added up how much gas I was using just to make 2 extra trips out to orchestra, and I looked at the frustration at not playing I had...and made the decision to quit.  And I couldn't be happier :-) Funny how God uses things like that, huh?  Even in the first week of school He said "my plans are higher then yours."

So now I'm looking at what to do with all this time I seem to have.  Literally every afternoon is free, which would be fine if I was bogged in homework like I'm used to.  I've placed a call to USD 259 to see if they can transfer all my paperwork I submitted for teaching over to the substitute office.  I'm hoping that maybe I can substitute teach in the afternoons.  I REALLY miss teaching in the schools.

And...there ya'll go.  I updated :-)  My life isn't that exciting, I feel like I'm in a weird holding/transition/immobile stage of my life.  Kinda like I've got to get through these 2 years before something happens.  But hey, if I live each day looking to the future I'll never appreciate what I have.  Each day is beautiful and that's all I've got.  So I'll live each day to its fullest as I slowly learn to let go of my own plans. 

God is good.  And He is big. :-)

Much love <3